So much!

Man, there are just so many things I want to do!
I want to do DLA or theFurnace before joining the Air Force, but there's already so much to do before I would even be prepared to join! Physical training, studying for the ASVAB, mental preparation... So much to think about.

While I am not one hundred percent sure that this is the path for me, 6 years in the Air Force would open up so many opportunities I won't be able to come by otherwise. College isn't really in the cards for me without some sort of fantastic income and with the economy it is difficult to find a job to support school. I'm not even sure what I want to do... I can think of so many things I would love to learn but I'll be 22 in a few months and that's a little late to start trying to be a "jack of all trades".

The mission trip to India for this summer with theMILL will help me a great deal I think... It's hard for me to explain right now.

In the last few years I've noticed that my ability to communicate what I think has digressed into a conversation-only style of functioning. Which probably explains why I write much like the way I talk... which looks terrible because I'm not so great with grammar and proper sentence structure.

I will more than likely edit this post a little later to fill in some gaps, but right now I'm trying to sort through my thoughts... because there is certainly an abundance of them!

Hmm...

Enlist in Air Force > 4 Year Bible College Plan in Austin, TX (or perhaps just Texas) > Work for ONE Chapel/Career Path in AF as Still Photographer > Become Air Force Officer > Study to be Air Force Chaplain > ???


...
Time to work through the details...

I Will Be Still : Playlist

"Still" : Hillsong
"How He Loves" : Eddie Kirkland
"Always" : Hillsong United
"You Gave Your Life Away" : Paul Baloche
"Stronger" : Hillsong
"Maker Of Heaven" : Desperation Band
"For Love I Sing" : Glenn Packiam
"Hosanna" : Hillsong United
"You'll Come" : Hillsong United
"My Hope" : Glenn Packiam
"Christmas Song (Mary)" : Bekah Ham & Glenn Packiam
"Love Song" : Jason Morant
"Highest Place" : Bekah Joy Wagner & Desperation
"Joy Will Come" : Bekah Joy Wagner & Desperation
"Rescue" : Jared Anderson
"I Love You Lord" : Jason Morant
"Amazed" : Jared Anderson
"With Everything" : Hillsong
"Unfailing God" : Mitchell Schiff
"Captivate Us" : Watermark & Charlie Hall
"The More I Seek You" : Kari Jobe
"Revelation Song" : Kari Jobe
"Mighty To Save" : Hillsong
"Oceans Will Part" : Hillsong
"From The Inside Out" : Hillsong United
"Hiding Place" : NewLifeWorship
"Hallelujah" : Hillsong United
"Came To My Rescue" : Hillsong United
"None But Jesus" : Hillsong United
"Ready Now" Desperation Band
"Hear Us From Heaven" : Jared Anderson
"Saviour King" : Hillsong United
"Jesus Paid It All" : Passion Worship Band
"Good To Me" : Bekah Ham & Desperation Band
"Overcome" : Desperation Band
"Light Up The World" : Desperation
"God Be Praised" : Desperation

"Being a guidepost is a very lonely thing, but you'll fall in love and develop a heart for so many people..."

What does that mean?



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I was praying before going to bed... I asked God where I'm supposed to go from here, then I started thinking of all my friends - how they have moved on or started something significant with their lives.
I wondered why I was still in the same place I've been for so long.

I imagined myself standing there on this street, directing people to wherever it was they wanted to go... then those words came into my head.

I ran a keyword search on BibleGateway.com and only one verse in an English translation included the word "Guidepost".

Jeremiah 31:21

It didn't say too much so I went to check the context. I read the entire chapter and am still having a hard time understanding what it means...

I even looked up the definition of "guidepost" and googled it too!
There are tons of ministries with that name and such... but what does it mean to BE a guidepost??

Joy Will Come

Joy will come in the morning
Riding on the wings of the dawn
I know
Joy will come after mourning
As surely as you are God

Joy will come
Believe
Joy will come
Joy will come

Joy will come
Believe
Joy will come
Joy will come

Joy will come like the harvest
Reaping for the tears that we sow
I know
Joy will run to farthest place
As surely as you are God

Joy will come
Believe
Joy will come
Joy will come

Joy will come
Believe
Joy will come
Joy will come

What is this hope I feel?
It's helping
What is this peace beyond understanding?
You fix the broken heart
There's healing in Your wings

What is this hope I feel?
It's helping
What is this peace beyond understanding?
You fix the broken heart
There's healing in Your wings

What is this hope I feel?
It's helping
What is this peace beyond understanding?
You fix the broken heart
There's healing in Your wings

Joy will come
Believe
Joy will come
Joy will come

Joy will come
Believe
Joy will come
Joy will come

What is this whisper small?
I'm hearing
So far above it all
It's speaking
You're still the sovereign Lord
There's healing in your wings


Jon Egan and Mia Fieldes © 2009 Integrity Worship Music/ASCAP and Mia Fieldes/Shout! Publishing (adm in the U.S. and Canada by Integrity Worship Music)/ASCAP
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Job 8:21
"He will yet fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy."

Job 33:26
"He prays to God and finds favor with him, he sees God's face and shouts for joy; he is restored by God to his righteous state."

Psalm 30:10-12
"Hear, O LORD, and be merciful to me;
O LORD, be my help."

You turned my wailing into dancing;
you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy,

that my heart may sing to you and not be silent.
O LORD my God, I will give you thanks forever."

Psalm 94:19
"When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul."

Psalm 126:5-6
"Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him."

Habakkuk 3:17-18
"Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls,

yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will be joyful in God my Savior."

John 16:20b
"You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy."

Is it bad that I don't watch the news because it's too depressing?
The world is a scary and very messed up place... I read some articles and thought to myself "Why?"
I'm heartbroken...

How very small my world is here.
How very safe I am...

Is it wrong of me to remain ignorant to the horrible things happening in the world around just because they make me uncomfortable and sad?

I just don't know...

Highest Place

Lord You searched me
and You know me
You hear all of my thoughts
No point in hiding

Lord you found me
So completely in need of You
I cannot run from You

If I go to the heavens or down below
You are right there waiting
If I rise on the wings of the dawn
You are there
I will find You waiting

You are in the highest place
You are in the falling rain
You are in the mountain peaks
and valleys speak wonders of Your name

You are in the perfect sky
You're in every breath I breathe
You're in every moment life seems to pass me by
You're my prince of peace

In the glory of Your glory
I become like You are,
It's overwhelming

In the presence of Your presence
I finally see,
All Your love for me

If I go to the heavens or down below
You are right there waiting
If I rise on the wings of the dawn
You are there
I will find You waiting

You are in the highest place
You are in the falling rain
You are in the mountain peaks
and valleys speak wonders of Your name

You are in the perfect sky
You're in every breath I breathe
You're in every moment life seems to pass me by
You're my prince of peace

You're everything
You're in everything
You're in every part,
It all ends and starts with You my King

You're everything
You're in everything
You're in every part,
It all ends and starts with You my King

If I go to the heavens or down below
You are right there waiting
If I rise on the wings of the dawn
You are there
I will find You waiting

You are in the highest place
You are in the falling rain
You are in the mountain peaks
and valleys speak wonders of Your name

You are in the perfect sky
You're in every breath I breathe
You're in every moment life seems to pass me by
You're my prince of peace

You are in the highest place
You are in the falling rain
You are in the mountain peaks
and valleys speak wonders of Your name

You are in the perfect sky
You're in every breath I breathe
You're in every moment life seems to pass me by
You're my prince of peace

You're everything
You're in everything
You're in every part,
It all ends and starts with You my King

You're everything
You're in everything
You're in every part,
It all ends and starts with You my King


Jon Egan and Doug Brown © 2009 Integrity Worship Music/ASCAP and Hamilton and Lynn Publishing (adm by Universal Music Corp.)/ASCAP
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Isaiah 9:6
"And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace."


Philippians 2:9
"Therefore God exalted him to the highest place and gave him the name that is above every name..."